Well, things have been rough. I am trying to sleep to get more energy to get going, play dates have to be made, beaches have to be visited, laundry be washed and dinner be made... and I am dragging myself through this beautiful summer...and don't even do any yoga...and the running is far far in the future. With two to three hours of sleep at night, it just isn't even on my radar.
Well as we all can imagine life quality is low and first priority is SLEEP. Let's try again tonight. JJunior is teething on top of things, so I am not sure how long I will let him cry. Hang in there everyone. It can only get better;0)
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Our first daughter was a very bad sleeper. How much of it was my fault I am not able to tell. I can however state certain habits which I believe may have not helped the situation. But before I just put myself and my very best intentions down and blame my fear of letting go and such, I would like to walk the proactive path and try to undo some of these “mistakes” with my son.
He is now almost 1 year old and we have yet to sleep through the night. We must add though, he was sick for almost all the first 6 months of his life, thanks to his preschooled sister and her friends, as well as to our trips to friends' houses and birthday parties, playgrounds and of course, let's not forget the unbelievably long, cold and snowy New England winter this year.
So thanks to snot-noses, fevers, coughs, rashes (and yes, sadly a little burn on his hand), thanks to gas and spit-ups and similar issues, my little boy has had a very hard time sleeping. And we barely have grown two teeth so far. Mostly he sleeps for about 2-3 hours a piece and then wakes up. Guess how (if at all) he goes back to sleep...only if he nurses. Obviously at one point in the last year he has figured out that mommy will obey if he just whimpers enough.
Now here is my question: How else do you soothe a baby? I rocked him, sang to him, walked him, but I must admit, yes nursing is the easiest way to calm a crying infant. What a powerful tool, and why not use it.
Yes I am aware of that he shouldn't associate nursing with falling asleep, very painfully aware, since I am the one to blame. And yes I pay for it too. I do though also believe that this will not last forever, I have a 4 year old, I do know. It also is a very nice feeling to be able to help your little one with such small effort, especially when he is not well, which again he wasn't many times in his short little life.
Currently we are fighting a now four day fever, during which I broke down again and let him into my bed, nursing while sleeping. I am just too week at 3am, my legs don't hold up anymore, I fall asleep constantly, so why not lay down.
Well I think the only reason to speak against that would be the question on how to get him back to his bed to sleep by himself as soon as I can't take it anymore.
I guess I will just start again, which I have several times in the past months to follow a technique that I found out about in a book called the Baby Whisperer. The author did not believe in the very famous Ferber method, because she thinks it is too cruel, which I myself actually agree with. And please do not feel bad if you rather Ferberise your baby, everyone has their own ways, strengths and ideas and I am not the one to judge!.
The Baby Whisperer basically stays with the baby several nights, picks him up when he cries, and puts him back down after he calmed down. You can end up picking up your child many, many times during the first night. The author spoke of cases where she repeated that for about 50-60 times. The second night it was less and the next night even less then that. Up until the point that the baby understands, that he will be taken care of and not left alone, and feeling safe he will go to sleep learning to sooth himself.
I lucked out when I tried this method for the first time a few of months ago, after a sick period and bad developed habits. I only picked him up 24 times and then he decided not to cry and to go to sleep. The problem here was though that he woke back up again at 2 am and I couldn't handle the procedure again so I nursed him back to sleep.
I have failed, I am not recommending this method at all anymore. It's just not working for me. I would be interested if it is working for anyone else out there though...Several nights of picking up my son and putting him back as soon as he calmed down resulted in a very very hurt lower back, sore arms and no patience whatsoever. I think if you start wanting to scream at your child you need to leave and change plans...so Mr. Ferber, where are you, I am compromising now and it seems to help a little.
I basically have a nighttime routine, which we follow pretty precisely every night. Book reading, at the moment we stick with “Good Night Moon” which he seems to LOVE. We tickle and sign a little at things I actually know, such as lamp, bears, moon and cow and he just digs it and giggles...Then we nurse and bottle feed, yes I am trying to wean, but we are on a very yucky formula because he has to be dairy and soy free for now. Has anyone tried it? It's called Alimentum and it tastes like it...it's because I believe it's sort of pre-digested so the body doesn't need to break down the proteins which he seemed to be having trouble with...but more of that another time...we are back on sleep routine. After the nursing we sing and I tell him it's bedtime. Kisses and down he goes.
Guess what, 75 percent of the time he actually goes to sleep within 5 minutes. I stay with him by his bed. Sometimes he has a harder time to fall asleep and wants to be held and nursed, but I don't give in. I pet him, "shshshs" him and if it takes longer I lay down next to his bed, so he sees me and I can rest my legs and back.
Now that we covered the going to bed problems we have to tackle the nights...I just don't know how to be consistent, I plan to nurse only once at night but after 1am, he just seems to be too persistent and I seem to not be able to stick with any routine, because to be honest I sometimes don't even realize what I am doing anymore...Too exhausted. I wake up and don't know what time it is and when he nursed last;0) So now I decided to go to bed every night at 8pm so that I can catch up and be more rigorous with the late night routine.
Wish me luck and let's hope we can celebrate his birthday with a good night's sleep;0) And if you have ideas or want to share your experiences just write. Always happy to hear from you.
Dear Friends and Readers,
why mindful, why hippo? Why the mindful hippo? So many reasons and no reason at all.
I am a mother, a wife, in my mid-thirties and I am trying to change my life, my outlook, and maybe someone else's afternoon.
I also am very interested in topics such as healthy diets (for my children), saving energy, greener cleaning, more conscious parenting styles, yoga, making things and saving trees. Yes I do love trees, but more of that later.
After my first baby was born more then 4 years ago I started taking several classes on topics such as mindful parenting, systematic training for effective parenting, yoga and meditation. I had been practicing yoga for 10 years by then, mostly at home by myself, but the concept of doing something in a more mindfully oriented approach appealed to me more and more. That said, I still do many things without putting any mindfulness or yogi spirit to the process and if it involves my children I usually pay for it very quickly.
And of course I also like to chat and share my day to day issues that come along with being a full time mother, a want-to-be-cook, -teacher, -entertainer, -decorator, -yogi, -artist, -skinny bitch with many more buns in the oven;0) We actually had another baby about one year ago and I just turned 35 so that last part will very much likely stay in a “want-to-be”-category.
Oh and I do LOVE making things. Well in theory... I would love to show off my latest projects I created after years of sewing, knitting, baking and shaking...well, I am just starting, though I do have a couple of projects in my head and on the paper. And I believe that this blog will motivate me to get things going so I have something else to share. So please be on the lookout, this year will be different, things will change and we will create things here at the mindful hippo;0)
The hippo, yes, the hippo apparently is one of the more ill-tempered animals, grouchy and big. I do find it cute though! With it's big jaws, sitting in the water yawning.. I wouldn't compare my temper directly with the one of the hippo, but I am not a very quiet person who just takes things as he or she goes. Sometimes life would be easier for me if I could just shut my mouth, cool my temper and address the issue with more.....well yes mindfulness. I think we are getting the picture.
Unfortunately or ironically the hippo's size has inspired me as well, since I do have a little weight issue myself, which I am addressing by counting points, exercising, failing at that and restarting the process over and over. Serious mindfulness needs to be applied in this area as well...
So thank you for coming to my blog, read through whatever interests you, take what you like and leave the rest... Let's see if I make it through this month with my writing and hope what you saw here made you feel like returning.